While on vacation, I had the most beautiful dream. I dreamt of seeing my marine, of his smile, or his scent. I enjoy being around him so much. Simply being in the same room, breathing the same error, fills me with joy.
When I awoke, I am reminded that my marine did not come with us. I invited him earlier this year. He was in Texas and now in Southeast Asia. It is highly unlikely that I will see him soon or that my dream will come true and I would be by him.
During my vacation I perused posters from Social Anthropologists that show various beliefs and rationale for relationships. When it all comes down to it, it is always about that.
As a result of my time away, to reflect, and enjoy, I have made a decision... my decision to release all these ' friends with benefits' relationships and pursue that ultimate calling to be united with one person.
I began to think that the reason I attracted myself to military men is because these men are difficult to connect with. They lack the desire to have a deep emotional committed connection. Something in them fears this and they repel when they feel themselves getting close.
Honestly, I dont know what it is, all I know is that I dont want it anymore. I want to be close. I want to be included. Also I want someone who will be present in relationship.
When I awoke, I am reminded that my marine did not come with us. I invited him earlier this year. He was in Texas and now in Southeast Asia. It is highly unlikely that I will see him soon or that my dream will come true and I would be by him.
During my vacation I perused posters from Social Anthropologists that show various beliefs and rationale for relationships. When it all comes down to it, it is always about that.
As a result of my time away, to reflect, and enjoy, I have made a decision... my decision to release all these ' friends with benefits' relationships and pursue that ultimate calling to be united with one person.
I began to think that the reason I attracted myself to military men is because these men are difficult to connect with. They lack the desire to have a deep emotional committed connection. Something in them fears this and they repel when they feel themselves getting close.
Honestly, I dont know what it is, all I know is that I dont want it anymore. I want to be close. I want to be included. Also I want someone who will be present in relationship.